Speaking of science fiction books and series I want to read and watch...There are a lot of sci-fi books and book series' that I want to read...but I feel like I can't because I don't want to taint my own Generations Universe™ story.

I have a fear that if all that information from the novels I read is fresh in my brain when I write my books, then there's bound to be a some similarity, some plot devices and common tropes that will infiltrate my story and appear to the ignorant people out there as if I stole it from a previous story... There's always those ignorant toxic trolls that want to shit on a good thing. I've had it happen in the past where some idiot thought I stole some idea and I merely was influenced by it. There's a big difference between ripping off an idea and being inspired by the idea. Ignorant people conflate the two and in their ignorant unimaginative low IQ brains they believe you stole it. And when you try to explain how you were inspired by the idea, it goes over their heads because they're stupid and toxic. Meh... (Yeah I had a bad experience in the past with an asshole that destroyed my business by telling all his many thousands of followers to harass me online because he thought I stole his idea. It was a miserable experience dealing with those assholes and the asshole that started the harassment campaign. So I'm a little more than apprehensive to share my story out of fear another idiot asshole like him will step up and accuse me of stealing something I didn't fucking steal.)

I'm trying to create a whole universe that's original and amazing and thought provoking without being too influenced by the big science fiction stories out there. But guess what...? That's impossible. It's impossible because ART ISN'T CREATED IN A VACUUM! It's ok to be inspired by another artists work. It's impossible NOT to be influenced in some way by the things you see every day, especially the works of other artists in genres you're passionate about. I'm not just passionate. I'm obsessed with science fiction and science in general. It's impossible not to be influenced and inspired by the art you see and read elsewhere in the world and not have those experiences somehow influence your work in some way. So...I refuse to watch the series or read the books I want to watch and read until I finish my own books.

But what if...what if reading those books inspires me and makes me realize that I should take my story in a different direction? What if there's a tiny little tidbit of valuable information that I didn't think of that changes the dynamics of something in the universe to such a degree that it completely rewrites my books before I ever write them? What if I'm overthinking it..? LOL

I need to read what I want. Write my story. Complete my first draft. Then if that's not editable and I don't like it. Rewrite it from the beginning. Then again. Then again. Until I get it right.

My first book will likely be something like 1000 pages. (I'm very long winded. This post is an example of my long-windedness.) Hell...my book outline and all my notes are somewhere around 200 pages now. Just the notes and outline! I've written multiple summaries and Prefaces and even tried writing the first part of a chapter about the hero protagonist of my story, but I haven't started writing the main books.

I'm terrified I'll fuck it up. Absolutely insanely terrified that I won't do my idea justice. I'm scared my talent as a writer isn't up to par with my idea. The idea is complex and grand in scale, an epic space saga than spans thousands of generations and billions of years. It's all based on solid science and plausible technology.

***In my very in-depth rabbit-hole research of the science for my Generations Universe™ I literally formed a scientific hypothesis on evolution called the Quantum Life Hypothesis. (I've literally written multiple versions of my Quantum Life Hypothesis. It's a full-on broad thesis on the whole of evolution throughout the universe). I could probably have it published in a scientific journal if I knew wtf I was doing and cited all the scientific studies and white papers and abstract references I have read while writing my thesis.***

But because I get obsessed with the details of a story, I overwrite, overshare, overexplain, and over-bore my readers sometimes. I need to just write concisely and get to the fucking point. LOL

Anyway...on second thought I'll probably read all the books I want to read. Maybe it will inspire me somehow to change my universe in a way that I hadn't thought of yet. Or not.

I think too much...I need to just fucking write my story! Lol